Wednesday, January 04, 2006

A Bold Step???

Well, tomorrow marks my last day at a job that I absolutely despise. No more white lab coat, no more cubicle, no more having to write in either blue or black ink (I was made for colorful writing utensils).

I have to admit, it was a pretty impulsive move by putting in my two weeks notice, especially when I had no other job to fall back on right away. But for the last two weeks, my shoulders have felt 100 pounds lighter. I've even gotten a few really good night sleeps. My head doesn't constantly hurt and I do believe that I have smiled and laughed quite a bit more than previous weeks.

But what do I do now? I quit my job with the belief that God was going to take care of me and provide something...somehow. I still hold that belief, but I can't help but worry. What if I can't pay my rent in February? What if my dog starves because I can't buy her food? What if quitting was too impulsive of a move to make in the first place? What if I can't put gas in my car so that I can see my family? What if they shut off my electricity? What if...

I could go on forever. But rather, I'm going to sit back, drink some hot cocoa, and look heavenward...asking my awesome God to take care of me and believe WHOLE HEARTEDLY that He will.